I took the road less travelled by...

...and now I'm all alone. I know I should be happy about going to my first concert (and a VNV Nation concert at that!!), and I am - very much so - but I cannot help but feel the small amount of sadness tainting my heart after some ...recent encounters. All of my friends from high school, save one or two, act like they dont even know me anymore. And one specifically that I saw last night at the concert... we were such good friends, and now he's so different. He wasn't the happy, hilarious guy I once knew, and he seemed indifferent to seeing me again. I dunno, it's just that stuff like that affects me more than it owuld most people. I value greatly my friendships, and every one lost tears me apart inside. That brings me to my next downer of the evening. I found out about one of my once-friends not returning to Bryan next year..... Now we'll never settle our troubles. I feel like a murdered soul, fated to wander the earth with the remnants of a restless heart.... uh oh, the poetic part of me is coming out. I wish SOMEbody would come visit me soon so I'm not so alone. in the meantime, though, better leave well enough alone! G'night, all.

P.S. The lyrics to the song I'm listening to, of course, are very good... and very appropriate, I think. See for yourself:

My Beloved, by VNV Nation

It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
To dress the ground in white and grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second
That I spent waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance to tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still, greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

Current mood:	alone and angsty
Current music:	Beloved, by VNV Nation