Ye olde journal entry...again!

Current mood:	exhausted
Current music:	Fire, by Jimi Hendrix

Seriously, I never get tired of that! Except I'm quite tired after a whole day there, that's for sure! So yeah... I went... and Liam tried to get me to kiss him, lol. Yeah, in his dreams. He also was gonna let me have a taste of his beer, and I was like... uh.. I'm 20. And he was like, who cares, and I just shrugged, and he was like "so do you want a taste?" and I was like "I'm good, thanks." LoL I refuse to get his cooties!! Every time I pass him, he's smooching on a different woman, so I'm thinking, yeaaah, my lips = off limits. At least until after he's had all his shots, hahahahahahahah j/k. Yikes. Anyway, I'm pooped, so I'm gonna quit writing for the night. Blessed night to you all, m'lords and ladies!

Ah, memories...

Current mood:	nostalgic
Current music:	Shine, by Depeche Mode

Good ol' high school orchestra days.... *sniffle*

Drop Dead Fred

Current mood:	sore
Current music:	Fine Night Tonight, by ATB

Fred came today, so the day has been kind of a pain in the butt (haha) - but the interview went well, and the manager from the store where I want to work remembered me and wants me to start as soon as he can get me in. So yeah, I'm about 99% sure I've got this job. FINALLY. I was in a lot of pain before the presentation/interview, but it stayed away for most of the actual process, which is good, cuz it's really hard to concentrate when I'm hurting. Like right now, lol. Dang. Tomorrow is gonna suuuuck! haha good thing I'm staying home tomorrow. Anyway, thanks for your prayers! ^_^

Sayonara, Sanity!

Current mood:	anxious
Current music:	My December, by Josh Groban

You guys, please PLEASE pray for me. This job hunt is really getting me down. I started hunting early, and I've gone out almost every day since I got home to seek other options and follow up on original ones, but I remain jobless (and therefore penniless). I'm at the end of my rope, and this whole situation is seriously depressing me now. Last night after talking to my mom about a little of what I'm feeling about all this, I went back to my room and broke down and cried. I don't know what to do, and I'm losing what little hope I had left - I have an interview for RadioShack tonight at 6 in Atlanta, and it's my last somewhat promising possibility. I know I have to trust God right now, but I have to admit how hard it is. I'm just so tired of thinking I have a chance at one place when I first go to get my application, then being shot down when I go to turn it in. For all you future managers out there, don't act like you really want to hire somebody when you don't really plan on it and are going to act considerably less interested the next time he or she comes in. It's emotionally draining for the applicant to keep getting that kind of response, BELIEVE me.

Anyway, I had better get going so I can psychologically prepare for tonight's interview. I'll tell you all about it later... if I live through it. Hah.

Yay ^_^

Current mood:	dirty
Current music:	Just Another Day, by Jon Secada

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	refreshing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	unique
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RenFest Revisited

Current mood:	bored as all get out
Current music:	Let It Rain (Vocal mix), by 4 Strings

Yes, that's right - I went back with my brother and his singles class. Strangely enough, today was "Singles Saturday" cuz this was Romance Weekend at RenFest. I was afraid it might get me down to be there on SINGLES day, but it was actually quite fun. I got to see Liam a little more this time, and he was a lot more... eh... amorous than last time, LoL. But hey, that's a pirate for you! No sunburn either cuz I remembered sunscreen ^_^. yaaay for me. but now I'm rather bored and lonely, cuz nobody is online to talk to (as usual). I swear, you'd think the summer would free up people's time enough to be online to talk more, but noooo. In fact, they're on LESS these days. I miss you guys a LOT a lot!! *big huggles* If you're ever on and see me on, don't hesitate to say hello. Well, back to my sitting here with my random away message up, waiting for a message or two, hehehe. Dang, I should have stayed over at Andy's apartment and watched him play video games a little longer. Cuz I'm flippin BORED.

It occurs to me...

I am an idiot. A big fat stupid idiot.

Be vewwy vewwy quiet.... I'm hunting [STUPID] jobs.....

Current mood:	creative
Current music:	Sign Your Name, by Kevin Lyttle

Okay, so I haven't updated at the frequency with which I normally do... mostly because I haven't had much else happen besides the stupid evil job hunt of DEATH - which, by the way, remains faithfully UNSUCCESSFUL. >.< Oh well. Enough about that. I hate talking about it. Moooving right along!

Oh man.....the funniest (and creepiest) thing happened to me today when I was out job hunting. I had checked up on my application at Kohl's, so I decided to look around for some good deals on clothes.....I was looking at some shorts when I heard this little boy singing in a happy, cheerful, soft tone "I'm not going to kill my mom.... I'm not going to kill my sister either, because she is cuuute..." and so on.... I was freaked out, grabbed a pair of shorts and retreated to the dressing rooms!

I've been sewing a lot during the evenings while I watch TV with my parents, and I have now successfully repaired a shirt of mine on the side of my BIGGEST project: My Witch Hunter Robin costume! I'm so excited at this point, cuz it's nearly done ^_^ ^_^ ^_^. I only have to finish the skirt and find suitable ribbon for my hair. Here's what she looks like, for those of you who don't already know:



Once I finish that (or perhaps while I'm waiting to find the right fabric I need), I'll begin working on Milly's stun gun so that maybe, just maybe, people will know who I am this year. I guess it'll also help if Jason can come to AWA and be Wolfwood for me when I'm Milly... ^.^ Okay, well.... I think I'm going to go back to IMing and searching for toilet paper tubes now ^_^. G'night, all! (and thanks to the two guys defending my honor - you know who you are, and I know who one of you is, lol.)

OPA!

Current mood:	weird
Current music:	We Got The Gun, by Clint Mansell

Yep, today we went to the Greek Festival ^_^. Even though it rained in the middle of the day, that didn't stop them much, and the festival was GREAT. (So was the food, heck yes!) I got a "Chicken Oreganato Platter" which had the chicken and some other rather tasty side dishes.... *drools* And then of course I had some baklava ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ oooh baby. That's what I'm talking about. My dad even got me two pieces (and I was like, why??) but I didn't complain too much, hehehe... it was so rich, I ate one piece, and the other is waiting patiently for me to come to it tomorrow, bwahahaha!! I got a couple dancing skirts (one of them complements of Dad ^_^), one champagne-colored and the other dark blue - both gorgeous! Thanks again, Dad!

Afterward, we came home and watched Entrapment on TV. it's funny.... I remember seeing it in theaters, and I remember liking it, but I didn't remember what it was about, lol. but yeah, NOW I remember hahahah. Good stuff. And then we watched Grey's Anatomy, and now I'm here. I'm hoping to get some unpacking/cleaning accomplished in my room tomorrow, and maybe a little more costume-making done for AWA. Here's hoping! Well, back to my IM conversations, since they're so terribly interesting - one guy's boasting about watching Trigun and eating sherbet and teasing me with the fact that I can't get to him (you know who you are! meh!), another and I are discussing hermaphrodites (don't ask lol), and another and I are discussing being 21 and the foolishness of the expectation of immediate alcohol consumption (yeah, it sounds intelligent, but it's really not). See ya later!

Ye olde journal entry!

Current mood:	sore
Current music:	Wanna Be Starting Something, by Michael Jackson

Today, I went to the Renaissance Festival and was devastated when I discovered that Liam had shaved his head!!! *tear* Oh well, now I get to call him "Baldy" instead, bwahahahahaha. But yeah, after 7 hours of wandering around in the sun, my flesh in certain exposed areas became a lovely shade of red. Bright red. ^_^ Aloe = GOOD. Oh, and my mom "accidentally" won a dagger in the raffle at the Pirate Ship. She thought her number got called, and when she admitted her mistake, the pirate dude let her have the dagger anyway. HA! And guess who got the dagger.... yes, me. The blade-happy lunatic. ^.^ I'm especially happy about today, cuz this year they brought back Ded Bob!! WAHOOO! Okay, I'm done now. The sun has taken a lot out of me, so I'm going to go sleep now - especially since I gotta get up tomorrow. After church, we're going to a Greek Festival! Be jealous, Will! ~_^

I thought it felt a bit drafty....

Current mood:	lonely
Current music:	Beloved, by VNV Nation (bet ya would've never guessed! lol)

Currently Playing Futureperfect By VNV Nation see related

- Beloved

Yeah, so I wondered why the lyrics to "Beloved" looked so short. Apparently the site at which I attained them did not have all of them. So here are the more complete lyrics, since the stuff that got left out before is very good and applicable as well:

Beloved, by VNV Nation

it's colder than before
the seasons took all they had come for
now winter dances here
it seems so fitting don't you think?
to dress the ground in white
and grey

it's so quiet I can hear
my thoughts touching every second
that I spent waiting for you
circumstances afford me
no second chance to tell you
how much I've missed you

my beloved do you know
when the warm wind comes again
another year will start to pass
and please don't ask me why I'm here
something deeper brought me
than I need to remember

we were once young and blessed with wings
no heights could keep us from their reach
no sacred place we did not soar
still greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I made
I know you feel the same

my beloved do you know
how many times I stared at clouds
thinking that I saw you there
these are feelings that do not pass so easily
I can't forget what we claimed as ours

moments lost though time remains
I am so proud of what we were
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits
grant me wings that I might fly
my restless soul is longing
no pain remains, no feeling
eternity awaits

...*sigh*... I miss my friends.

I took the road less travelled by...

...and now I'm all alone. I know I should be happy about going to my first concert (and a VNV Nation concert at that!!), and I am - very much so - but I cannot help but feel the small amount of sadness tainting my heart after some ...recent encounters. All of my friends from high school, save one or two, act like they dont even know me anymore. And one specifically that I saw last night at the concert... we were such good friends, and now he's so different. He wasn't the happy, hilarious guy I once knew, and he seemed indifferent to seeing me again. I dunno, it's just that stuff like that affects me more than it owuld most people. I value greatly my friendships, and every one lost tears me apart inside. That brings me to my next downer of the evening. I found out about one of my once-friends not returning to Bryan next year..... Now we'll never settle our troubles. I feel like a murdered soul, fated to wander the earth with the remnants of a restless heart.... uh oh, the poetic part of me is coming out. I wish SOMEbody would come visit me soon so I'm not so alone. in the meantime, though, better leave well enough alone! G'night, all.

P.S. The lyrics to the song I'm listening to, of course, are very good... and very appropriate, I think. See for yourself:

My Beloved, by VNV Nation

It's colder than before
The seasons took all they had come for
Now winter dances here
It seems so fitting don't you think?
To dress the ground in white and grey

It's so quiet I can hear
My thoughts touching every second
That I spent waiting for you
Circumstances affords me
No second chance to tell you
How much I've missed you

My beloved do you know
When the warm wind comes again
Another year will start to pass
And please don't ask me why I'm here
Something deeper brought me
Than a need to remember

We were once young and blessed with wings
No heights could keep us from their reach
No sacred place we did not soar
Still, greater things burned within us
I don't regret the choices that I've made
I know you feel the same

Current mood:	alone and angsty
Current music:	Beloved, by VNV Nation

Best night of my life!!

Currently Playing Eulogy for the Sick Child By Imperative Reaction see related

Current mood:	enthralled
Current music:	Syntax, by Imperative Reaction (FINALLY!!!)

Okay, so I just got home about half an hour ago... and I smell funky, lol. Mostly cigarette smoke, I think, but oh well. I'm about to crash in bed and absolutely pass out, but I had to give a quick rundown of the night first. First of all, it was AMAZING!! Soman, then Imperative Reaction (heck yes), then VNV Nation! We even got VNV to come out and sing more songs two more times by chanting "VNV! VNV! VNV!..." I got both Ronan and Mark to grab my hand when I got up close to the stage. First Mark bent over and shook a bunch of hands, mine being one of them ^_^... then when Ronan leaned over and teased us once like he had been doing all night (he only occasionally actually reached out and grabbed a hand or two when he'd bend pver to stare down his audience), he looked at me - and I think he might have pitied me cuz I had been trying all night, and this was during the first REappearance they made, so I was all like "please!" and I think he heard me/read my lips, cuz he reached out and took my hand, and I was all like "THANK YOU!" So I'm never waashing my right hand again, cuz Ronan and Mark BOTH touched it! I got some pictures of Imperative Reaction and VNV Nation performing, but I doubt they're going to come out. Oh well..... I did get a picture (and autographs) with Imperative Reaction after the show though. I'm looking forward to the development of this roll of film indeed! LoL. Anyway, after we left, Chris, Eric, and I went to the Marietta Diner for chocolate shakes and WATER, cuz we were hot and dehydrated lol. And now I'm here. And I think I shall go to bed now. I'll fill in the gaps in my story, plus some interesting details of the evening such as people from high school I saw there, and the "lady" in the orange dress with big white polka dots on it... yeah, I'll fill you in on all that and more tomorrow, but my brain has finally died for the time being, so I'm going to bed. G'night!...er, morning!

4 1/2 MORE HOURS!!!!

Oh man oh man oh man!! VNV NATION!!! I can't believe it's not butter!!!! meh!

Not-so-happy hunting!

Today has been.... good and bad. A big job hunting day, which is never good, especially because I keep getting that same I-say-I'm-hiring-but-really-I'm-not-going-to-even-glance-at-your-stupid-application look from people. A few were nice, but the rest.... *sigh* I DESPISE job hunting! But I did get a new spaghetti-strap black shirt today, and it's really pretty. I look forward to the first opportunity to wear it - like, say, if I ever go clubbing! then we went to Media Play, and I got a hardback compilation of all Douglas Adams' six books for 15 dolares!! WEEEE! Be jealous.

Anyway, my parents and I went to see Kingdom of Heaven tonight, and that was really awesome. I think that's all the grandness that occurred today. yeah. But tomorrow is the night!!!! VNV NATION!!!!! AAAHHH! *wets self*

So now that my night is ruined...

Yeah.... I looked up my grades online. Crap, I tell you! Crap!

*sigh* I think I'm going to go to bed now, though, cuz I have a dentist [dis]appointment tomorrow morning. Besides, suddenly I'm very depressed.

School is [un]cool.

Yeah, so I just checked my grades for this past semester. I am very depressed. They're not bad, but they're not good either, and I needed them to be in order to raise my GPA. Somebody hold me.... Oh wait, that's right - nobody's here.

Another blog to add to my treasure trove...

So now I have a Xanga, a LiveJournal, a MySpace, AND a Blogger...... not to mention the blogs I have abandoned in years past. How exciting.