Well, I'm back from NC.

Current mood:	discontent
Current music:	Mother India, by Caedmon's Call

There were good times and bad, fun times and boring... the usual. And yet, here I am, thinking more about the future than I have in a long time - and that's saying something! I'm surrounded - nay, haunted - by death, both physical and spiritual everywhere I turn, grateful for the happiness that God has brought me but despairing at the troubles that the world has brought to those I love most and, consequentially, myself. As it has been for several days now, I cannot close my eyes without seeing their faces and crying. My heart is breaking because there is nothing I can do for some of them... All I can do is pray for one (well, two) and treasure the potentially few remaining days with the other. Why is everything around me falling apart? I mean, sure, I'm alone, and I often wonder if I'll ever find someone with whom I can spend the rest of my life, I have a few health issues, blah blah blah... but that is nothing compared to what I see happening to my friends and family. As retarded as it sounds, I'd really rather have it happen to me and let them be happy - I can't stand this position I find myself in, sitting on the sidelines, watching helplessly. I love them! Why can't I make this pain stop for them, even just a little?? I'm just glad I'm home so I can be alone to cry. And pray. I pray daily for one in particular who won't hear me but I hope will hear God. You probably don't know who you are, but I'm thinking of you and praying for you always, and I love you so much.

Just so my lovelies don't think I've forgotten them in my sadness, thanks for all the comments, calls, and stuff I got on Christmas! You guys will probably never know how much I love you, but I do, so very much. I can't wait to see you all again!

Today's oh-so-eventful events

Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Toccata in D Minor BWV538 (the Dorian), by J. S. Bach

Today's oh-so-eventful events
Let's see... went to the doctor early this morning... got some blood work done, gave a urine sample (yay.), didn't have to get a pelvic (YESSSSSSSSSS)... and so far, I'm A-okay.

After that, Mom and I got some potato soup and bread at Atlanta Bread Company, did a little random shopping at pottery and fabric stores, stuff like that, then saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (good stuff! but I definitely cried a bunch). Due to my growing cold, however, I became quite tired thanks to my supposed "non"-drowsy meds (HA.) and almost fell asleep! Pretty much the rest of the late afternoon until dinner was spent sleeping through Seinfeld on the couch... and then we watched the taped episodes of Bones and House from last week and tonight's CSI: Miami (which featured Michael Shanks!!! <3<3<3 - for those of you who watch Stargate: SG-1 like Michelle or Peter, he's Daniel Jackson ^_^) ...And all the while, I cross-stitched. And now my weariness from this lovely little disease of mine has caught up with me again, so I'll probably read a bit in one of my Philosophy of Science books that just came today until I pass out in front of the fire or until it goes out, since it's on its last leg of life anyway. Yay for fires in a fireplace on a cold night along with a nice hot cup of Russian tea! ^_^

And one other thing: Good sweet Mike, I hate politics. I hate talking politics. I hate hearing about politics. You can bet your butts I'll not be marrying a politician. Somebody shoot me if I do. Or cut me into a thousand pieces and hide me in the walls. Okay, I'm done ^_^. Time for some philosophy!

***EDIT***

Two words for you: Yeah. Buddy.

You scored as Belle. You are the bookworm Belle. Intelligent and keen on reading, Belle always longs for adventures described in books. When one really happens to her, she was kind enough to discover the inner personality of the Beast. Belle 92% Pocahontas 83% Jasmine 83% Ariel 75% Cinderella 75% Aurora 58% Mulan 58% Snow White 42% Be a Real Princess, a Disney one. (WITH PICS) created with QuizFarm.com

Thanks, Dr. Legg - I mean, Dr. Jasmine! ~_^

I've still got it!

Current mood:	giddy
Current music:	Let's Go All The Way, by Sly Fox

That's right, guys. I got asked out for the first time in a long time. Check this out: My parents and I stayed overnight in Chatty last night, so the first thing we did upon leaving the campus was to go to our hotel. Well... Mom and Dad grabbed some stuff to carry up to our room, and I stayed out at the back of the Tahoe, trying to figure out what I should and could take inside. So I'm standing there, my computer in my arms, eyeing the other stuff in the back to see if I can grab anything else and save a trip, when suddenly I hear a voice behind me. This kinda scuzzy looking guy in a trucker hat and cammo jacket asks me if I need any help carrying anything. I was like "No.. thanks.. I'm good. *friendly smile*" and he was like "you sure?" and I was like "oh yes... thank you though" and so he kept on walking after that. I resumed my task, trying to look busy, and about the time the guy reached the end of the parking lot (at the main road), he turned and yelled back to me, "Are ya hungry? Wanna get something to eat?" ...to which I quickly responded with a friendly "No, thanks!" and gave a nervous laugh. Yikes. I was desperately searching my pockets for my phone to call Dad and tell him to get his butt out there but couldn't find it. Thankfully, a few moments later, there he came. PHEW! After we finished unpacking and as we drove off to dinner, I saw him at the gas station next door to the hotel and said, "hey, look, there's my boyfriend!"

We ended up eating at Red Lobster (yum!) and then came back to our room and watched TV till we fell asleep.. which, for everyone else, meant 9 or 10 but, for me, meant more like 11 or midnight. This morning after breakfast, we went to McKay!!! I got some interesting stuff for cheap (of course) and pretty much none of it ended up being useful, i.e. textbooks, cuz they didn't have anything I needed. Ah well. Got the next two books in the Sword of Truth novels ^_^ ..so pretty soon, I'll have them all and can read them all a second time before reading the new ones that have been coming out all too infrequently. Plus, I found another album by Toy-Box, and I thought they only had the one! whoa buddy! Yes, it's even cheesier than the first one, but hey... it cost me a whole 95 cents. oooh.

After a long McKay jaunt, we went back to Northgate and saw King Kong. Holy mother of Bob. That movie. I mean... I... it's.... AH! I wish it didn't say G.D. so many times, but it had a good romantic plot within it that didn't involve SEX. Yessssssss!! I am so tired of watching movies with my parents and ending up having to sit through a ginormous sex scene, shifting awkwardly between them and wishing I could die right then and there (perhaps some of you remember my Love Actually experience... *shudders*). Don't worry, I won't give away the ending (for those of you who don't already know the King Kong storyline, such as myself before today... it had been too long since I saw maybe even PART of one of the older ones), but MAN, good stuff at the beginning, teehee! Anyway, my love for Adrien Brody has been renewed, though it never really went away to begin with. Ever since my first experience with him in The Pianist, I have adored him. yes, ladies. He's up there with Colin Firth. Something about him, I dunno... Hey, but he had a nice bod, which I did not know before this new movie of his, mwahahahah. ^.^

And I shall leave with this, my desktop wallpaper, as a token of my giddiness:

***EDIT***

Another picture from this scene was found on a website called www.brodylicious.org, hahahaha... and the subtitle given by the webmistress/fangirl was quite amusing to me, and I thought I'd share (*snicker*):


Batten down your ovaries!